Liebster Awards!

I’ve been nominated for the Liebster Awards! Thank you to The Drunk Librarian for nominating me. (Also it took we 3 tries to get her link to work, Still figuring this whole blog thing out). Anyway…

Here are the Rules…

  • Thank the person/people that nominated you by providing a link to their blog in your Liebster Award post
  • Give 11 random facts about yourself
  • Answer the 11 questions from the blogger/s who nominated you
  • Nominate 11 other blogs that have 200 followers or less
  • Ask your nominees 11 questions of your own


1. I didn’t think being anonymous blogger would be this difficult.

2. My favorite color is blue.

3. I’m a night owl… (As I write this post it is 1 am)

4. I am extremely awkward ( as you can tell by my name)

5. I am in a sorority. ( Shocking I know but I love every minute of it.)

6. I Love Love anything Theatre and my favorite musical is Hairspray

7. I’m a fangirl of many things and I couldn’t give a rats ass if anyone thinks I’m to old to be fangirling over stuff.

8. I have a snapchat addiction.

9. I have a love hate relationship with my job. Love the people I work with, hate everything else about it.

10. I love singing along with songs but 98% of the time I do not sing the correct lyrics.


  • What song can you not stop listening to right now? – Shut Up and Dance by Walk The Moon
  • Who’s your favorite fictional character? Could you beat them in a fight? – Their are way to many to even pick but the first one the popped into my head is Emmett Cullen. and Hell no. Two Words. HIS ARMS. But I think I could sweat talk him into letting me win.
  • What are you most impatient for at this moment? – To get a new phone. Mine is to old and is not working correctly. Plus it would be awesome to just get a new one.
  • Take your favorite book — or a book you like a lot – and turn its title into a porn parody title.- “The Cum in Our Stars” ( I know its bad, hahah but its 1 in the morning my creativity has gone to bed.)
  •  Remember that favorite book above? Describe it in less than 200 characters..- Well first I would have to say that it is magical. To me this story isn’t just about love and losing it, it is more than that. Its about finding who you really are and finding what makes you special. This book is about fighting the things you fear the most.(really 200 characters?! That was so hard lol. Maybe someday I’ll do a post on the fault in our stars)
  • Would you rather be made of paper or of beef wellington? Defend your decision.- Paper, definitely paper. I do not imagine being eaten would be very comfortable. Plus If i was paper I would get to do so many cool things!
  • Word association time! I say “all,” you think . . .- We’re all in this together… ( Like the song from high school musical! I actually started singing it! )
  • All-in-this-Together-Dance-HSM-8-Yrs
  • When was the last time a book made you really angry? – A few weeks ago. The book was ” Love Rosie By Cecelia Ahern.
  • Do you wish you read more? Why don’t you?- YESS!! But I’m a college student which means I have no time to even read for my classes.
  • What was your most recent Google search?- “Once Upon A Time Season Four”
  • Giving yourself 1 minute and no cheating, how many states (in the U.S.) can you name?- Indiana, Illinois, Ohio, Main, Idaho, Utah, Texas, Florida, Washington, New York, New Jersey, California, Oregon, Kentucky.

( Now time to nominate people.. Well I do not follow many people and I still do not know how to find who follows them.. so finding people with less that 200 followers is going to be hard… so I’m just going to pick 11 blogs).

I nominate:

1. Thefangirlclub

2. MissHumpster

3. Awanderingstoryteller

(apparently I don’t know that many people so I’m only nominating 3)

Your Questions:

1. If you were stuck on an Island what 3 thins would you bring with you? Why?

2. What TV show do you wish you could be a part of?

3. What is your favorite number?

4. What is your least favorite book? Why?

5. If you could go back in History what one day would you want to go back to?

6. What is the last thing you texted?

7. What age has been your favorite?

8. What is your favorite color?

9. If you could be an animal what would you be?

10. Where is your dream place to live?

11. What is your favorite Song?


Fandom News: Paper Towns Trailer

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If any of you are not aware, the Paper Towns movie will be hitting theatres on July 24th, and because of that quickly approaching release date, they dropper the trailer yesterday. So I am here to attempt to give you some updated information on the movie, and hopefully fulfil your inner fangirl needs.

First comes first, the cast:

It has Nat Wolff (played Isaac in TFIOS), and Cara Delevingne. I am super excited to see Nat in another John Green movie, and I am interested to see how Cara will portray Margo. But, lets get on to the truly exciting part of this post; the trailer.

Anyone have any pressing thoughts, ideas, beliefs, or opinion that you have a sudden urge to express and post on the internet for the world to see? Leave them in the comments!

Thats all for today though, so I will leave you with stating…

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Best St. Patty’s Day Ever!!

Okay so yesterday was my first “real” St.Patty’s day (first one when I’m 21) and it was the best! So I go to school in my home town and everyone comes back to town for St. Patty’s day. Which means seeing people from high school, people you want to see and people you which you would never have to see ever again.

Now I would just like to say how proud of myself I am! I saw two people who I would always try to avoid eye contact with. Why you ask? Well one of them I was in love with in high school and up until last year. Now I don’t think I had longer than like a 10 min conversation with him. But I talked to him for about 30 minutes yesterday without turning red, or making it awkward! And the other is my current crush who as of last week I thought I was over him. Long story short, I went to high school with him and he was one of the popular Jocks and then we both transferred to a college in our home town at the same time and we’ve had lunch a few times at school since then. Well I had an hour-long conversation with him. I repeat and HOUR LONG conversation! And I held my own the whole time. Yes he was drunk, but you know what they say when you are drunk, you tell the truth. Now I’m not going into detail of our conversation but he told me he wishes he hung out with more people in my “group of friends” in high school because we are the real “cool” people. And when he said that all those feeling came rushing back into my heart. After a while he got his phone out and asked for me and my friends number. I was on cloud 9. And he kept hugging me. Now I know he probably doesn’t remember our conversation but all that matters is that he took the time to actually come over and talk to me.

Now I did see one girl who I cannot stand from high school. But I faked it till I made it and I was nice even though I would have loved to thrown my drink in her face.

Maybe just maybe This awkwardness that I have is going away, or I just know how to manage it and not make it even more awkward when I’m awkward. Who knows?

~Awkward Blogger~

Reasons Why I read 50 Shades of Grey

I am currently on my spring break and I came home instead of going somewhere with friends. So with that time I finally get to read!  (yayay!) And people keep asking me what books I’m reading and I will tell them, oh you know this and that because I don’t want people to know that I’m reading the 50 Shades of Gray books. But I came to the conclusion late last night that who cares if they judge me for that. I am an adult and I can read what I want and even more shocking I can actually enjoy them! This has gotten me to see that people need to stop judging a movie, a book, or even better each other! Just because the book is biased around sex, doesn’t mean it doesn’t have an actual story line with characters that have great personalities.

Now the true reason why I started to read the books is because of twilight. Yes reader, you read that right, TWILIGHT. For any of you who did not know, 50 Shades was originally a Twilight fan fiction. And yes Mr. sexy Gray is Edward Cullen and Ana is Bella. SO I really just wanted to pick 50 Shades apart for what I thought it was, plagiarism. Yes I can see made similarities to twilight, but since I have finished the first book, I’m starting to see that it has its own world and not that of Twilight.

When I started reading 50 Shades I was a little reluctant and almost stopped reading. But as I read more and more I had a revelation. I am Anastasia Steele. How might you ask? Well we both are innocent,(…. I think you can figure out what I’m implying in that), we both have a sarcastic, we over think and over analogize EVERYTHING, we are sassy yet classy, and so much more!

Now I started to read them because I wanted to see all the hubbub that everyone was talking about. But I’m seeing that all the “haters” who keep saying it is “glorified abuse” have not truly read all the books, because if they have they would see that it is much more than that and that Ana is more than a sub but truly something life needing and changing to Christian.

So me Awkward blogger, innocent, young Catholic woman, has read the 50 Shades books and actually has enjoyed them.

~ Awkward Blogger~

I’m back!

Okay so I took a step back after about two weeks of blogging… This was after people stopped looking at my page. I was sad. But now looking at it, I don’t know why. I really did not start this blog to get readers. I started it to vent my feelings out. This was my “Therapy” so to speak. So with an open mind, I AM BACK! With our without readers. I will post what ever comes to mind, no matter how odd it might be. This is simply for me and if someone finds it and they enjoy it, learn something from it, that’s even better. With that being said I hope to post more often.

Awkward Blogger


So the end of my first week of the spring semester is near and all I can say is that this semester might very well kill me….. For some reason it always seems like spring semesters go by a whole lot faster than the fall. Maybe its spring break but I’m not sure. I already have a major project due by Wednesday for one my classes and two small presentations both Due on Tuesday for two other classes. I mean yea I knew being an upperclassman was going to be difficult ( Last semester almost sent me to the hospital with the amount of stress I was under) but boy let me tell you, IF I had known that college, was going to be this stressful and hard, I might have thought more about it. But then again, I think the real world would have been 10 times harder than college would have been for me as a freshman. Well here’s to praying this semester isn’t as bad as I think it will be. Here’s to wanting graduation to be here already, but here’s to also perpetually putting off making sure I will graduate soon and taking the minimum classes for my fed aid, and here’s to hoping that I can forever stay in college so that I Do not have to face my REAL WORLD!


Awkward Blogger.

Dear Future Husband.

Dear Future Husband,

I’ve been thinking bout this letter for a while now. Yes, I may have gotten this idea from a sleepless night on Pinterest, But this is something that I feel I need to write. I need to write this because by know you probably already know how hard it is for me to let others know see my emotions. Where I am in my life right now, I honestly couldn’t tell you if I am happy or not, and that is mostly due to all of the changes happening. And that scares the shit out of me. I thought that I had a lot of my life planned out, but as I have started to see, it isn’t going as well as I would want it to.

Sitting here writing this in my room in my parents house, I can’t help but wonder what you are doing at this very moment in time. I wonder if you are in my life already? I know God had a plan for everything that I do and everyone who is in my life, but I wish he would tell me who you are. I wonder what his plan for you is right now? I wonder how old you are, am I older or are you? I know none of that stuff matters because I already love you so much, but you are just on my mind and I want to know everything about you. But I must be patient and wait till it is our time to meet.

Growing up, I always knew I wanted to get married and be a mom. Yes, I will have to admit I have spent many times on Pinterest planning my wedding. But right now were my life is, I can honestly say I am so scared of commitment and don’t want to let anyone down. Which is an issue. I think I am finally realizing how ready I am to actually grow up and live a life, because right now I am living a life of fear. Fear of disappointing people I love and disappointing myself. Fear of someone complementing me and actually meaning it. Fear of loving myself and fear of letting others see that I love myself.

If you asked me what my plans for the future were, just a year and a half ago, I would have gotten excited and told you this long plan of living in NYC and living a great life there. But now, I’m not even sure of what I want to do for the summer, let alone the rest of my life. And that honestly is scaring me. But it has also given me the chance to live a life of chances and not to let others run it 24/7. I might be scared that I do not know about the future, but I’m excited to live this new adventure, where I know you will fall right into place.

I have come to the point in my life where I know I’m sure as hell one awkward woman, but I have started to grow to like that part about me. No matter how many times I think to myself, “Why am I so awkward?”, I know that it is what makes me the person I am. But I do know it is one thing that is holding me back from talking to guys. I always start to freak out and think about all the awkward things I could say or do. But I have been this way most of my life, so I know that God will give me the “will power” I need to be able to talk to you when I am ready for you in my life.

I love you more than words could explain, and I don’t even know you yet. I know we are both handed picked by God and made to love each other. I am dieing to meet you, to feel your touch, to feel your words hit my heart, and to feel your words hit my heart, and to feel my love touch you as well. I love you to the moon and back. I pray that when we do find each other we will know deep down in our hearts just how much love God has given each of us.


Your Future Wife.